February 25, 2009
I hereby announce the closure of this blog. I’ve been contemplating this for quite some time. I can’t really verbalize the reasons why, but I’ll try.
I feel that with the current style of writing that’s been accumulated over the years, I cannot achieve the intended purpose for this blog. It’s very restricting, and in one of the saddest words ever (to me)… it’s ’stifling’. I said that I would go on a journey to gather material (in the previous entry). Part of it was to figure out the direction of this blog, and also to refocus on the current state of affairs and my walk with God.
This past month has been enlightening in a sense. I think I’ve been given enough material to move forward in a new direction.
So, this blog is officially closed. There are approximately 10++ drafts which never got posted over the course of its short 3 year lifespan. I look back at the journey with tender fondness, knowing that if I were to get anywhere else, then this is the way to go.
I will move my blogging and whatever new plans I have for ‘expression’ to a new site. Click http://tinyurl.com/115i-it5i-iin35
(And no, the link is not spam nor virus. It’s a redirection URL because I don’t want spiders crawling this blog).
Dear readers, you have permission (finally! :p) to add my new URL to your blog links. Use the tinyurl link instead of the actual address (thank you!).
This blog shall close with verses from 1 Corinthians 13, perhaps highlighting the inadequacies of myself and the blog; and the things I’m striving towards: conformity to the nature of God, which ultimately comes from a communion with God. I pray in accordance to His will for forgiveness on anything I’ve said wrongly in this blog; and that readers of the blog may be blessed by the entries, if He so desires. Amen.
1 Cor 13
1If I speak in the tongues[a] of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames,[b] but have not love, I gain nothing.
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
January 8, 2009
Quoted from somewhere else: "The Lord my God, The Lord who is now King, I will praise the Lord alone unto eternity". =)
These days Daddy has made it apparent that I need to pray for a revival. We need a revival. Pray earnestly for one. The following song in particular kept playing thru my head these few days, ah.. how lovely. Unable to find a reliable source for the lyrics, but apparently it was produced(?) by FCBC, and is in one of their albums. (Hmmm but there’s one minor detail I don’t quite agree with in the lyrics… but that’s for 1-to-1/face-2-face discussion).
I came into the gathering of the people of the Lord
And found my way among them to His Throne
I needed to return unto the altar of my God
To renew again my covenant with Him
I wanted to discover the first love we once had shared
Rekindling the fire deep within
I found the lamp still flickering in the temple of my Lord
And poured a horn of oil unto the flame
And there I built an altar to His name
And realised my life would never be the same
And then the fire of revival came
Sweeping through my soul
And I touched the Holy Presence of my God
Come build an altar unto the Lord
Return to worship and hear His Word
And then the fire of revival will come
Sweeping through your soul
And we’ll touch the Holy Presence of our God
This season is all about enthroning Him in our hearts.
On another note, I now have a clearer picture of what to pursue as a career. The other option that I had, would perhaps be a hobby instead =) But everything’s not confirmed yet. =)
December 27, 2008
Found the song I was looking for! And the lyrics!~~~ More to come, after I’ve found them.
竭诚献上
*如果机会只有一次 我要如何拥抱
如果生命只有一回 我将如何奔跑
哦主！让我趁着还有今天
哦主！让我为祢燃烧
假如时间绝不留情 我该如何珍惜
假如风光不能久留 任我奋力辛劳
哦主！让我看清 数算代价
哦主！我愿任祢陶造
*献我的灵为祢焚烧 我的心被祢融化
我的手 我的脚 全顺服引导
献我的口为祢高唱 我的盼(爱)宁静等待 竭诚为主一生摆上
我的眼睛已经看到祂将临到 祂的怒气必诚实如海浪惊涛
我的耳朵已听见祂亲切呼唤 邀请我与祂携手今朝 一同开创未来
November 17, 2008
The events are mostly over already. But I still don’t feel like I can take a break.
Should I rest? Perhaps I’ll take a day or 2 off and get going again. I don’t feel like I can stop, or should stop. argh.
And… it’s difficult but I’ll try not to see with human vision. Oh Lord, I long to see what you see.
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I know I said I’d post in my blog for weeks already. I finally did, but this is not a coherent entry. I apologize. I’m actually in a hurry to rush off to a friend’s place, so… I’ll blog when I’ve made better sense of stuff.
October 1, 2008
Today has been a weird rollercoaster ride of sorts.
Just awhile ago, I asked Daddy to teach me what love is. I said,"I know what it is to be loved. But, I don’t think I know how to love. Please… teach me".
And this was what I heard. "Love. is. sacrifice".
Then everything came to light 
August 10, 2008
"I will amaze you everyday". That was what Daddy said to me just now. Fact is, I’ve heard that many times before. The question was whether I was willing to embrace and take hold of that truth.
He has been amazing me especially so in the past few days. And on friday He said, "Watch, today I will amaze you". I think God has been amazing in His daily grace. But it’s become more evident in the recent days because I’ve been aware of a need to become more sensitive to His voice, hence the heightened attunement. Attunement is desirable, attenuation is not. I pray that my spiritual antenna will always be tuned in to Daddy’s frequency.
Hence, I decided to take hold of that truth. It’s quite peculiar though. If someone tells you of a good ‘offer’, w/o any ill intentions, wouldn’t you accept it immediately w/o much thought? That person being someone you know you can trust? I think I’m (or humans in general) a strange creature. I had to give much thought to that ‘offer’.
I’ll not elaborate on the issue of ‘delaying’ the taking up of the offer today, that’ll be in a future entry/post. But it all boils down to receiving. Learning to receive the grace and gifts. Receive.
My dear readers may be wondering about the 3-month lapse in posting. I’ve actually drafted quite a number of entries but never gotten around to completing them. Sometimes I just have some thoughts and decide to pen them down online, but the entries were too sparse. I’ll work on them in the near future. I’ve been spending the past few months getting my bearings, making sense of stuff. Most importantly I’m growing. I love growing. I also love watching things grow.
I love nurturing plants and watching them grow. And it’s such a joy when the flowers bloom. The same can be said for people. The greatest joy is in watching God doing His ‘gardening’ work in people around me. He waters and nurtures them, removing the weeds etc. Day by day I just enjoy watching one particular friend of mine grow. I await that day when the flower blooms. Oh what a beautiful day that will be =)
Will you receive? Will you let the Great Gardener nurture you and remove the weeds in your life? The day you do will be the day amazement begins.
=)
May 7, 2008
A prayer to my Lord.
Psalm 25
1 To you, O LORD, I lift up my soul;
2 in you I trust, O my God.
Do not let me be put to shame,
nor let my enemies triumph over me.
3 No one whose hope is in you
will ever be put to shame,
but they will be put to shame
who are treacherous without excuse.
4 Show me your ways, O LORD,
teach me your paths;
5 guide me in your truth and teach me,
for you are God my Savior,
and my hope is in you all day long.
6 Remember, O LORD, your great mercy and love,
for they are from of old.
7 Remember not the sins of my youth
and my rebellious ways;
according to your love remember me,
for you are good, O LORD.
8 Good and upright is the LORD;
therefore he instructs sinners in his ways.
9 He guides the humble in what is right
and teaches them his way.
10 All the ways of the LORD are loving and faithful
for those who keep the demands of his covenant.
11 For the sake of your name, O LORD,
forgive my iniquity, though it is great.
12 Who, then, is the man that fears the LORD ?
He will instruct him in the way chosen for him.
13 He will spend his days in prosperity,
and his descendants will inherit the land.
14 The LORD confides in those who fear him;
he makes his covenant known to them.
15 My eyes are ever on the LORD,
for only he will release my feet from the snare.
16 Turn to me and be gracious to me,
for I am lonely and afflicted.
17 The troubles of my heart have multiplied;
free me from my anguish.
18 Look upon my affliction and my distress
and take away all my sins.
19 See how my enemies have increased
and how fiercely they hate me!
20 Guard my life and rescue me;
let me not be put to shame,
for I take refuge in you.
21 May integrity and uprightness protect me,
because my hope is in you.
22 Redeem Israel, O God,
from all their troubles!
May 3, 2008
It’s been rather hot these past few weeks. It’s been much cooler over at grandma’s place, where I spend most of the week at. I’m very thankful that God has blessed me with a loving family and a place to live, and grow in. But still, there’s no place like home. I think I’m getting on to something, something that God’s trying to tell me. need to slow down, quieten down, and listen. argh.
Lovely song I just heard, pasted below. And perhaps, hmm, I think he shall be named Charlie.
Summer Wind
The summer wind, came blowin in - from across the sea
It lingered there, so warm and fair - to walk with me
All summer long, we sang a song - and strolled on golden sand
Two sweethearts, and the summer wind
Like painted kites, those days and nights - went flyin by
The world was new, beneath a blue - umbrella sky
Then softer than, a piper man - one day it called to you
And I lost you, to the summer wind
The autumn wind, and the winter wind - have come and gone
And still the days, those lonely days - go on and on
And guess who sighs his lullabies - through nights that never end
My fickle friend, the summer wind
July 19, 2007
God has been really amazing and so loving in my life since the previous post. Not that He hasn’t been. It’s just that I’ve been more aware of Him and what He’s doing in my life.
Words cannot really describe how I am feeling now. So, this is what the Joy of the Lord really is about
"Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again:
Rejoice!"
Philippians 4:4
May 29, 2007
I’m feeling guilty.
I was impatient.
I am ashamed of my actions.
I take full responsibility.
Is it wrong?
Silence is not golden. Silence hurts.
Does it all end like that?
Maybe I’m just imagining things. But I really doubt so.
I seek forgiveness.
I don’t know if either of you(persons intended) would see this.
I guess I’m that horrible then.
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don’t worry loyal readers. I’m coping. always am, right? this is nothing new, if you’ve known me that long. Maybe you’ve all gotten sian seeing the same old cycle of crypticism and verbal "flaggellation". I’m also tired of it.
This time, things are different. I have a deep resolve now. I am going to depend on the strength of God.
I will live the life my Lord wants me to live. I’m not going to do it alone, not by my own strength anymore. It has proved to be futile over the years.
I will do my best not to disappoint anymore. For whatever you’ve seen in me and thought I would be, I apologize for not living up to it. Yes, I know one should live for himself(I don’t mean that in a self-centered perspective,but I think you get what I mean). Ah yes,I think the word is living vicariously, or something close to that, you get my point?
I will be the man that God wants me to be. And I will seek to be contented with my lot and do my best in it.
Here I go at it. Be good y’all.